A New Label...Or Answers?
- Mell W
- Dec 27, 2018
- 2 min read
Let me just put a friendly reminder out there on what my blog is really about. It's about my journey to finding the self care that works for me, breaking stigmas and negative labels, and letting light into my life...and in order for me to write about those things, I have to continue to be brutally honest and brave. This is hard for me. You're about to hear why.
I go to therapy on average twice a week. Does that make me sick? No. But many believe that it does, and it's heartbreaking to hear them say it. Therapy is a beautifully challenging obstacle that helps and heals you in the long run. I love it, and I need it.
Recently, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and let's just say it scared the crap out of me. Why? Because my first thoughts were "oh god, what if people think I'm crazy", "what if my husband blames every argument we have had and ever will have on my disorder", "what if my family thinks I'm just sick and messed up"...How unfortunate is it that those were what first came to my mind, instead of happiness that I will finally get the treatment that I need and have a name for what I've struggled with for who knows how long. (Hint: It's pretty unfortunate).
But I am grateful that this is something that has been placed on me, as a diagnosis. I have wondered for so long why I do the things that I do, and why I think the way I think, and now I thankfully have answers.
This is just a short post, more for myself and to be honest/accepting towards myself. But just for the hell of it, here are a few sources that I feel anyone who has borderline personality disorder or anyone who knows someone with BPD should read:
I love you all, dear readers. And I hope that this quick post was not only informational for you, but will let those of you with BPD know that you are not alone and that I am right there with you.
I hope you all had a Merry Christmas/Or whatever holiday (or not) that you might have been celebrating.
Love,
Mell W.
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